Why does my best friend calls me NAM? Well, that name was from the movie Crazy Little Thing Called Love (Thai Movie), where a high school girl got a crush on a popular guy in the school. We saw that film like 5 months ago and it was really catchy, because of the setting and the characters, like it happened to me years ago. I use that name when I go to Starbucks and when the Barista asks my name, I say Nam just for fun though. XD

      It's 10:34 pm, I  just got home and I am effin tired. I just wasted long hours again for nothing. I am happy but I am more sad. You know what's in my head? These ?????????? I'm not asking but those question marks are like maggots spreading and making noise inside my mind. What? When? Why? Why? Why? People think I am strong. Well, I am strong! But they don't know that there is weakness in me. You may see me smile and make me laugh but I just know how to hide the pain inside. I just have to maximize the happy sound, for you not to hear the sad sound that I make. I thought that the only thing for you to be heart broken is by losing someone but I was wrong. Being broken hearted could have many reasons like losing job, losing stuffs, and etc. I wanna give up! If only my body is like a computer which you can just click to shut it down and you can power on when you wanna use it again. I would cry a river if it could just relieve the pain. I would dance in the rain if it could just wash away all of my heartaches. I wanna live my life but it seems like my life doesn't want to let me live. I don't blame You, I never will. I just hope that You can give me a hint of what do You want for me. I know You want the best for me and I hope You won't get tired to help me. You're the only one I trust, you are my savior and my life. 

I am happy that my puppy Hachi is not sick anymore, after 6 days without eating he started to eat again. I am so happy to see him running and jumping, he also started to bark on those kids playing  in the street. Oh, how we missed the sound of it. I'd rather hear him barking than to hear my mom's nagging at me. We haven't let him to run with us every morning, he really wants to come with us though. (^.^) 

       I've been busy and tired these past few days. I and the whole family are taking care of Hachi, my 3 month old puppy. He doesn't want to eat for 5 days now. We brought him to the Veterinarian 3 days ago and the doctor said that my puppy might have eaten or swallowed something bad for him, so she gave him 2 shots in his thighs and 5 different kinds of medicines. Oresol in powder form diluted in water, Antibiotic, Antiemetic (for vomiting), Vitamin C and Vitamin B12. Instead of the Oresol, we decided to buy Plain Pedialyte, it has more electrolytes like dextrose to rehydrated him and give him more energy. We tried to melt kibbles in Pedialyte and I put a little bit of honey syrup to increase his glucose for him to get some energy. We use 25 cc syringe to feed him, it's the easier way though. It's not really easy to take good care of a sick patient especially of a puppy, we don't know how they feel and what hurts because they can't verbalize it. My older dog Tommie always at Hachi's side, he's looking after the little one. That's a sweet scenario (^.^)... You know what I've learned? Knowing that Tommie got sick before, got paralyzed and almost blind, we thought that God will take him from us but we never gave up. Eventhough, he has involuntary movements, he's still here and gives us happiness. Hence, we shouldn't give up for Hachi... While there is Life, there is Hope!