FIRST LOVE'S HISTORY
"I'm so sorry... It's too late for you to come around".
(August 13, 2010)
I'm a frank person, when people talk to me I answer them directly but of course in a nice way. My ex boyfriend and I are now friends but not together in each other's arms again. He asked me if why I deleted him after he added me back on facebook. I told him that I had to move on (we both exhanging convos on some friend's post). I added him back because there is no other reason to ignore him. Although, I still love him a little but it is really over now for me, I do not want to be in a relationship with him again because I don't know if I could still trust him. I know I was not the best girlfriend for him but I gave half of my life to that relationship and was about to give my whole. It is kinda sad to think that it was all got wasted. He is saying sorry now for all the things he had done to me and me saying sorry for being just his friend. Friendship, that is all I can offer at the moment. He told me that he was clueless but I told him I was broken, he told me he was lost but I told him I got tired. If only he knows that I was just waiting on the other side of the door. I remember my cousin asked me if he was my first love, I was like "I think so". She said, she could feel it. I don't know what first love means until my friend and I were talking on the phone one day, she asked me if my last boyfriend was my first love, I answered her "Yes". I know who is friend's first love too. People who's been part of your life know, the one you truly love, specially if they witness how much tears you cried for that person and how painful for you to lost that someone. I told my friend that he was my first love because it was the first time I introduced someone in the family. I feel so at home when I was still with him. I think, there is no use to tell things about it, specially from the past. Well maybe, that's what you really called life. I am the one who is making my own destiny. I know that God knows what is the best for me and I am 100% sure with that.