It's 10:34 pm, I just got home and I am effin tired. I just wasted long hours again for nothing. I am happy but I am more sad. You know what's in my head? These ?????????? I'm not asking but those question marks are like maggots spreading and making noise inside my mind. What? When? Why? Why? Why? People think I am strong. Well, I am strong! But they don't know that there is weakness in me. You may see me smile and make me laugh but I just know how to hide the pain inside. I just have to maximize the happy sound, for you not to hear the sad sound that I make. I thought that the only thing for you to be heart broken is by losing someone but I was wrong. Being broken hearted could have many reasons like losing job, losing stuffs, and etc. I wanna give up! If only my body is like a computer which you can just click to shut it down and you can power on when you wanna use it again. I would cry a river if it could just relieve the pain. I would dance in the rain if it could just wash away all of my heartaches. I wanna live my life but it seems like my life doesn't want to let me live. I don't blame You, I never will. I just hope that You can give me a hint of what do You want for me. I know You want the best for me and I hope You won't get tired to help me. You're the only one I trust, you are my savior and my life.