Once Upon A Time In June
““Once upon a time, you met a girl who made you laughed, made you feel appreciated, made you feel wanted, made you feel loved, and made you feel incomplete in the month of June.”
(June 22, 2012)
Once upon a time in June, there was a girl named Bambi, she has just read the letter that came this morning. It was from her friend’s friend who lives in France. Bambi thought that her friend was just messing with her when she said that she gave Bambi’s home address to her friend from abroad whose name is Sam. Bambi was only 20 years old that time and Sam was 27 and they were both single. Months have passed; the two fell in love by exchanging letters. Bambi was ready to sacrifice anything just to be with the one she loves, but the problem was Sam, he was hopeless. He told Bambi that they should just stay as friends because he was not so sure about long distance relationship and he didn’t want to be in it. It was painful for Bambi at first, but she realized that maybe it is much better if they would just stay as friends and it was the start of her having doubts about Sam. For half a year of being friends, Sam hasn’t asked Bambi’s telephone number. He hasn’t called her. Not even once. One night while hanging out with friends, Bambi told them about her relationship with Sam. One of her friends said, “Oh no, he’s a player. He is not ready for commitment.” The other one said, “He is just wasting your time. It is not because he is being nice to you that mean he really loves you.” The last one said, “Maybe, he’s still in love with someone else and he is just using you to divert his feelings. Because you know men want to feel love. Well, we all do but they are selfish.” After the conversation with the girls, Bambi fell into a deep thought and said to herself, “How could they know what’s really on my mind? Is it possible that they were all right? Am I just wasting my time? Do I deserve to be lied to? Am I not trustworthy? Is this how I should be treated?” Bambi gave Sam another chance, hoping that Sam would change his mind and would be truthful, optimistic and hopeful this time. She tried to understand and be a good friend with Sam but still, nothing has changed. She even tried to ignore him and tried not to send him a letter for a couple of months but Sam didn’t stop sending her letters and Bambi started replying to Sam’s letters again. Bambi, let another 6 months passed, it was June again. After a year, Bambi realized that her relationship with Sam was going nowhere. Even it hurts her bad; Bambi could still manage to write Sam a farewell letter.
To my dearest Sam,
Hi, I don’t need to ask you if how you are doing. Because I don’t know if you are still going to reply after you read this letter. Well, I hope that you won’t because this will be my last letter to you. I just hope that you are doing fine and your family. I want you to know that I always care for you. I do love you Sam, if I would have a chance to be with you at this very moment I would make you feel my love for you. But what should I do? I am also a human who gets tired of waiting, assuming and expecting. I don’t want to hold on to you anymore Sam, I have decided to live my life like what I was doing before you came. It is just hurt to think that it is awesome when strangers become friends but it is so sad when friends become strangers again. I want you to be happy Sam, but I also want to be happy. I am so sorry if I am here talking like crap, trying to ruin our friendship that we built for a year. But I love you, I just cannot be friends with you anymore. I am sorry. It is time for me to move on and wait for someone who is made just for me, who is going to love me, someone who would invest on me and ready to be with me for the rest of his life. I hope you have a good life. I’ll understand if you are going to hate me for this. I would still smile at you when our paths have crossed, face to face in the future.
P.S. Take care of yourself.
Goodbye Sam... I will miss you...
Love,
Bambi
To my dearest Sam,
Hi, I don’t need to ask you if how you are doing. Because I don’t know if you are still going to reply after you read this letter. Well, I hope that you won’t because this will be my last letter to you. I just hope that you are doing fine and your family. I want you to know that I always care for you. I do love you Sam, if I would have a chance to be with you at this very moment I would make you feel my love for you. But what should I do? I am also a human who gets tired of waiting, assuming and expecting. I don’t want to hold on to you anymore Sam, I have decided to live my life like what I was doing before you came. It is just hurt to think that it is awesome when strangers become friends but it is so sad when friends become strangers again. I want you to be happy Sam, but I also want to be happy. I am so sorry if I am here talking like crap, trying to ruin our friendship that we built for a year. But I love you, I just cannot be friends with you anymore. I am sorry. It is time for me to move on and wait for someone who is made just for me, who is going to love me, someone who would invest on me and ready to be with me for the rest of his life. I hope you have a good life. I’ll understand if you are going to hate me for this. I would still smile at you when our paths have crossed, face to face in the future.
P.S. Take care of yourself.
Goodbye Sam... I will miss you...
Love,
Bambi
“Giving up, is not a sign that we are weak. In some cases, it means that we are strong enough to let go.”