March 7, 2012
“Dear. God, I pray to you to send me a man who is tall, white and has blue eyes, who will love me with all his heart, who will never leave me. A man who will accept me for who I am and not for what I have. The one who deserves the love that I can give and loves You like I do.” One of the elders in the prayer meeting told me that if I want to ask something from God it should be specific. I wrote this prayer request on June 18, 2011. After a week, a man who is million miles away confessed his feelings for me. I asked him if he wants me to be his girlfriend and he said yes. I realized that I felt like an easy girl that day; I shouldn’t be the one who suppose to ask him to get into a relationship. He made me wait for 4 days, and kept wondering why he hasn’t talked to me yet. He told me that one of his love ones passed away. After a few days I decided to break it off, our relationship. I told him that maybe we are not both ready and that maybe being friends is the best way to get to know each other well and that being just his friend will make me get closer to him. He sends me messages first every day, we laugh to each other’s jokes, we have been caking, and also had misunderstandings. For nine months of being friends I couldn’t help not to fall in love with him I don’t know if he feels the same way. He had no idea how many times I deleted him from my list and how many times I tried to forget about him. But the funny thing is we’re still friends. He sent me a book as his late Christmas gift to me and I really appreciate it and I love it. I will treasure it whatever might happen. I am happy knowing that he trusts me and loves to be around me. All I want is to bring out the best in him. Even though I'm not the right girl at least I do something good for him. And if he’s the tall, white, blue eyed man that God sent to me, I have nothing to worry about even he’s from the other side of the world.